Ready or Not

Maybe it's just me, but it seems like the last six months disappeared rather quickly. I find myself sitting in my dorm room at Hollins in Virginia, and it blows my mind how fast the time has gone by. I swear just yesterday I was watching all of my friends cry about leaving middle school, and now we're in college. College. Such a simple word for such a big change. Wow. I had my first classes yesterday and although it feels different than highschool, it's really not. Yeah, they grade more harshly. Yeah, grades are dependent much more on tests than on petty homework assignments. And yes, you have a lot more free time between classes and after and before. But when you think about it, what's really so different? The teachers still get pissy about cell phones in class. Attendance still can count toward a decent amount of your grade. And there are still those girls that you can tell are total bitches without even saying a word to them. So why is it such a big deal to some people? College is no different than highschool, not really. People tend to care less about you and your life problems and so far there is a lot less drama here than I had in highschool. But I don't know.

Don't take that as me saying I don't like college, because I do. I love it here. I intend to be a music major, and currently my schedule consists of three music classes (theory, sightsinging, and instruments made by hand in other cultures), an intro to theatre design class, a history class on the Holocaust, and I got accepted into concert choir and a chamber orchestra. MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC. I know, right? I might just die from the overload of 21 credits! On top of that, I've been working out for 30-60 minutes every morning at 8am. My classes don't start until 10:30 and go until 2:30 every day, so I have plenty of time for activities before and after. But choir is three nights a week from 4:30-5:30, and orchestra is one night a week from 7:30-9 (same night as one of the choir rehearsals), so that cuts a lot out of my free time. Plus, I'm currently in the process of filling out paperwork to help out in the scene shop for theatre to be a techie. c: So in between all of that I have to find time to actually do my homework and practice viola, and still have time to hang with my new friends. And I'm going to run for Class VP. Long story short, I'm busy 24/7!

It's crazy how different things are, but how similar they can be at the same time. I'm basically staying involved in all the things I did in highschool; I'm even trying to start a SMASH Club chapter here (they already have an animal rights club, but it's not SGA funded, so I might convince them to make it a SMASH chapter!). It really feels like home here, and I'm loving every second of it. I've made so many friends already, and I can tell they'll definitely be around for a while. And in two weeks, Sebastian will be coming out here to spend the weekend with me and he'll get to meet all of my friends too! It's just really exciting stuff. C:

This kindof turned into me describing my life at school, but that's not where it was headed... My point to this blog was, I wonder what all of my old friends are doing? Nobody texts me, nobody calls, nobody hardly even Facebooks me anymore! What's up with that? Was I that invisible to all of my old friends that they just quit caring because I went so far away instead of going to the same schools with all of them? I mean, don't get me wrong or anything, they're awesome people, but honestly I was sick of only going to school with the same kids I've known my entire life. Isn't the whole point of college to go out there and meet new people? Yeah, uh, hello, Terre Haute South? YOU'RE ALL GOING TO SCHOOL TOGETHER AND NOT SOCIALIZING WITH NEW PEOPLE. Which is why you have the same drama from the same people in college. Which is why I did the smart thing and left. This way, if I meet someone that I think will cause me problems, all I have to do is pretend like I never even met them, and voila! No drama! When you go to the same colleges with the same kids from highschool, all the old drama is still there and so are all the people who you've been around or involved with in the past. It just doesn't go away. It's nice to go somewhere new and have a clean start. You can reinvent yourself, and that's what I'm doing. Maybe you all should try it sometime, it's awesome.

At the same time, I still have some friends who didn't go to ISU, IU, Purdue, Ivy Tech, or BSU like the majority of kids from my class did. And to those friends I ask, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU? It's like you don't exist anymore or something. Geez. :/ I know I'm not the only one who went out of state for school, so I don't understand why we aren't talking more to try to cope together with leaving. No, it's not a big deal being so far from home, but yes, it is nice to have some good old friends who have my back in case I don't feel comfortable here. Luckily, I do love Hollins, so that's not a problem. But come on. I've heard from probably four different friends, including my boyfriend, from Indiana. This is just ridiculous. I feel unloved. The only reason I ever even have new Facebook notifications anymore is because of all my new friends at school. That is just, simply put, pathetic. I miss you guys!!

Anyway, this was a pretty blah blog today. I just felt like I needed to post something new. I've got to head to choir though anyway, but will hopefully be posting more often now that I actually have a reason to get on the computer as much as I do. Anyway, BYE.