I just need to vent a little.

You said forever. I wish I had known that to you forever was only until I left for college. I know I’m better off without you, because any guy who would throw me away like that doesn’t deserve me. But it’s not you that I miss so much, it’s what we had together. My biggest fear has always been that one day I would wake up and people would realize they just don’t care about me anymore. I always thought that was an irrational fear, something that would never really happen. Well guess what? You did that. You woke up one day and realized you didn’t care about me, you didn’t want me anymore. And of all people to do that to me, it was you, the one person I trusted more than anyone in the world. Thank you for making my worst fear a reality. I gave you all of me, 170%. I never betrayed you, never intentionally hurt you. But you did that to me and tried to say I deserved it because of petty things I had done in the past. Why? Why is she better than me? What does she have that I don’t? The only conclusion I can come to, is convenience. She’s there and I’m not. You’re far too needy to be able to deal with a girlfriend being three states away, even though you would see me once every month or two. You are so dependent on a relationship to define who you are that without a girlfriend RIGHT THERE you don’t know what to do with yourself. And honestly, that’s more pathetic than the boys who come running back to me after I’ve broken their hearts. You say you’re the best of all that I’ve been with; I call bullshit. They would never have hurt me like you did. And even now, when you’ve run off with this other girl and forgotten all about me, they’re the ones who are helping me pick myself up. So f*** you. I deserve better than you. I can’t wait for the day when you realize what you’ve lost.