To you, these things might seem like flaws. To me, these things taught me life lessons.
I'm vertically challenged. I still have to ask people to get things down from the top shelf for me. Being short has helped my climbing skills though, and having to climb to get to things a lot helped me get over a fear of heights. I've fallen many times from failed attempts, but it's taught me to get right back up on my feet again and move on.
I'm extremely emotional. A lot of people stay away from me because they think feeling so much means I have a lot of drama in my life. I don't. If anything, I've learned how to keep my emotions in check, and to not let them cause problems in my life. Sometimes I still hold it in long enough that it goes over capacity, and I can't keep myself together, but that's rare. I'm one of the most emotional people I know, but I just know how to hide it better than others.
I've got big hands, for a girl. When I was younger, I hated my hands. And any hands in general. I think they're just as ugly as feet. I especially hated how I didn't have cute little girly hands like everyone else. But I think the reason I don't is because it makes it easier for me to balance many things at once. Weak little girlish hands couldn't handle most of the things I deal with every day, and would not be able to hold as many people up as I do.
I get attached to people easily. This has made me rush into a lot of things that I shouldn't have in the past. But I always learn from it. Plus, it just means I care about people a lot. I see the good in people that most others don't, and I'm drawn to that. It's not a personal need for someone to be there, it's a desire to want to be there for them.
I have a problem with food. I'm pretty sure I have a weird eating disorder. I have trouble eating around other people most of the time, and I guarantee most of you haven't seen me eat. Sometimes when I'm alone I binge on junk food. And even when I feel like I'm starving, I'll take a few bites and not be hungry anymore. I don't do it because of body issues, and I have never purged. I don't know what you'd call it really. Sometimes I go a day or two without eating, and can feel perfectly okay. I'm still trying to figure out the silver lining to this flaw...
I have trouble letting go. There's a lot of things that I have finally moved on from that happened in the past. But I can't even tell you how long it took to finally get over those things. Because I get so attached, it's hard for me to let go of things. It takes months, even years for some things. But being able to hold on through all the bad times... sometimes that's a good thing. It means I'm willing to fight for what I want, and most people just give up so easily these days. That's why there's so many divorces; people give up so easily at the first sign of trouble, rather than working through it. If I ever get married, I will refuse to ever get a divorce, no matter how bad things might get. "You can't see the rainbow if you don't go through the rain."
I'm honest to a fault. I think lying is a waste of time, because life is too short to waste on people you don't enjoy being around and places you don't enjoy spending time at. Why bother lying? If you don't like someone, don't act like you do. If you're going to say something behind their back, make sure it's something you aren't afraid to say to their face. With that said, I try to keep my mouth shut about things that will cause drama. So anything I may say bad about someone without them knowing, is always something I would tell them in person, if they have the balls to ask me. I'm not going to lie and say I didn't say something if I did. I don't say things I don't mean, and I don't waste my time on people that I don't care for. Sometimes that comes off kind of mean, but would you rather me pretend to be your friend when I'm not? I didn't think so. If you ask my opinion, chances are I probably won't sugarcoat it. You asked for honesty, and if you can't handle the truth you shouldn't ask me for it when you know I'll be really up-front about it. Honesty is a good trait to have.
I'm very straightforward about my feelings. I've only truly been in love once, but that doesn't mean I haven't loved many different people. Loving someone and being in love with someone are totally different things, and I've definitely loved a lot of people. I fall for guys, sure, and care about them enough to know that I love them, but that doesn't require me to be in love with them. I'm in love with love. And if I like you, I'm going to tell you. I don't like to waste time. I'd rather know right then and there if you feel the same way, because if you don't, then I'll get over it and move on. It's that simple. Some people hate this about me because they don't like how direct I am, but it just helps me weed out the people I do and don't want in my life.
I have crazy mood swings for no reason at all. Probably one of my worst qualities. But I know that anyone who can handle my chaos of emotions is someone who I want to stick around. My closest friends know how to snap me out of my moods, and that's why I love them.
I know I have plenty of imperfections. I could go on for days like this, but I won't because you get the idea. My biggest weaknesses are also my biggest strengths. I truly believe that. And if you think about it, you'll realize yours are too.
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