If there is anyone in the world who can tell me how to let go of all the anger and bitterness I feel, I wish they would. I try so hard to forgive and try to trick myself into believing that I have, but I have not.
I want to. I want to not feel a twinge of resentment when I see you or hear your name. I want to feel completely emotionless about you. It is just so difficult to forgive a friend for hurting you, especially as badly as you hurt me.
It wasn't what you did to me that hurt. No, it was how you did it. So icy and cold one day after being so warm ealier that week. How does someone switch gears like that, so effortlessly? How could you care about someone for so long, to one day wake up and suddenly no longer care?
You brought my biggest fear to life that day. An irrational nightmare come true. And you did it without batting an eye. That's what makes it so impossible to forgive you.
I'm not sure if I ever will.
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